Christmas!

Has been really good this year. :)
Farah and Dave are visiting, so I'm enjoying that! Farah always makes me happy. :)
Last night, we made a gingerbread house and decorated Christmas cookies! Then we went to the 11 o'clock service and it was AMAZING! The candlelit part at the end is always my favorite. :) It was gorgeous and the music was phenomenal. We got home at about 12:30 am and I went straight to bed, I was SO tired. And I slept really really well all night! Until Sam woke me up. :l Butttttttttttttttttt. 
But oh well. Finally started opening presents. I got some cool things! I'm mainly excited about my new camera! I've been taking pictures ALL DAY. Haha. I even wore the battery out already. I've wanted a new camera for the longest time<3 
It was really bittersweet though. I mean, especially seeing Farah and Dave. As much as I'm incredibly happy for them, it reminds me of Ty and I. And I've just missed him a lot lately, it being Christmas and all.


Well I have to go get ready because we're seeing the new Narnia movie in just a little bit. :)
Merry Christmas, ya'll!

5 months.

It's been five months. Five months of sympathetic looks, five months of tiptoeing around the subject, when all I really want to do is talk. Five months alone. Five months heartbroken. Five months without you.
Honestly, Ty, it feels more like fifty years.
It's Christmas, now. Your very favorite season. It's just not the same without you. The Christmas season just doesn't seem magical anymore. It's hard without you. I don't deny it. 

I don't even know what else to say except that I miss you. A lot. And I wish you were here with me, and our baby. I love you.

Winter Ball&other things(:

I actually did have a really really good time! I thought it would be awful and hard and awkward, but it wasn't. I really had a good time! Dimitri knew the boundaries I was comfortable with and was sensitive to my feelings, etc. Everyone was lookin' mightyfine. :) And it was just in general a really good time. I got to be friends with a few people I didn't know all that well, and it was just a good time!

I'm also all done with my Christmas shopping. Kara and I went shopping and I bought things for Savita, Alie, Kara, my parents and my brother. I just need to get a few more little things for my mom, Savita and Kara because I only got them one thing. 
Doesn't really feel much like Christmas here, weather wise. It's supposed to be 80 degrees tomorrow! Not looking forward to it at all!


I really want to stay up for the lunar eclipse, but I'm so tired. I don't know if I'm going to make it. :l 

Well that's a short blog, but I don't have much else to say, so goodnight for now. :)

TIRED.

I am literally falling asleep at the keyboard. I'm FINALLY on break<3 No more school until January 5thhhh. :) I got a 72 on my spanish test, but that's out of the 4 people in my class of 30 that passed! So I'm absolutely relieved that I passed. I'm still worried about my physics test, but there's not much I can do about it now. I got an 89 on my final speech. I thought the rest of my tests were easy so hopefully I get a good grade! 
I really want to go take a nap, though. I'm just SO exhausted and tired. And there's still a lot to do! I need to go Christmas shopping, because I haven't gotten anything for ANYONE. STILL! :l Blah. I'm super stressed, but hopefully the break will help out. I'm just looking forward to getting some good sleep<3

I'm actually kind of excited about winter ball. I didn't think I would be, but I am. :)

Ow?

So I'm pretty sure my hand feels like it was run over by a truck. :/ I don't know why, but it does! Blah. It really really hurts! Blah. Oh.. Said that already! ;)
TWO DAYS until Christmas break... 4 finals. I know I aced my algebra final, but I think I failed physics... I didn't know ANYTHING on that test! I guessed on almost all of it! :(
I'm really really nervous! I need to get good grades. :/

I'm totally watching disney movies right now. Not ashamed. :) I'm in a particularly good mood today, not sure why. Despite the stress and worry and pain. :/ Blah. I guess that's my favorite word today? BLAH.

I can't believe it's almost Christmas, that I'm halfway through my junior year, and that I'm going to have a baby in a few months. Everything is going by so fast. It's the crazy thing called life I guess. And in the words of the great George Strait, Life's not the breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away. :)

So far, not good.

So I'm pretty sure I got a C or failed my spanish test. :/ I didn't expect it to be that hard! Luckily I have an A in that class so hopefully even if I did fail it wouldn't make me fail the class. Although the final is 20% of my semester grade. :/ Blah. School is so stressing, especially this year! I really need to get more organized for next semester, and not just for school but also baby-wise. I feel like we haven't even begun to prepare - we literally haven't gotten hardly anything and the baby is due in just a little more than 3 months! :/ I'm really stressssssing. :(

I just studied a bit for my algebra test tomorrow, but I didn't get a chance to study for physics... Hopefully it won't be too hard. :/ Guess all I can do is pray! My hand hurts from writing/straightening my hair. It's really odd. Now I'm just rambling. And listening to my coldplay playlist. ;) LOVE THEM.

I think I may also update on baby names, though I don't really have ANY. I've just tossed them around in my head.

Boys; Bentley, Lyndon, Fletcher, Kieren(sp?), Connor, Benjamin, Hunter, Patrick, Gavin, Xavier, Xander, Raif/Rafe, Cullen, Zane, Colton, Kenai
Girls; Jenna, Sophia, Amelia, Mia, Payslie/Paisley, Abcde(just kidding. ;) ), Malia, Aria, Lorelai, Delilah, Scarlett, Genevieve, Lyra, Lyla/Lila, Anastasia(middle), Abigail(middle), Nyah, Nila, Kiera, Tianna, Nova, Katia/Katya, Juliet. 

I have way more girls names than boys. And notice that I tend to like ___a girls names? ;) Almost all of them end with -a or the -a sound. Or close to it.

Wish me luck on the finals tomorrow, Ty. I LOVE YOU. Foreverrrr.

-SavannahRay.

Finals, winter ball, and Christmas.

Well I have lovely finals this week. :/ I hate them! Tomorrow I just have my spanish test, then my algebra&physics review sessions. Then my algebra&physics finals on Wednesday, history&choir finals Thursday and my speech&english finals Friday. We get out at 11:30 all week. :) I'm excited. It's weird, though. It's like getting out of school before it's even lunch time - odd. But I'm not doing as well in my classes this year so I actually have to study for finals, etc. Blah. I do badly at studying. I never know what to do. Guess now I have to make my vow that I'll do better next semester. 
Winter ball is on Sunday night. I do have a dress, actually. We didn't go out and buy a new one - it was actually my neighbor's prom dress that she's letting me have - she said she never will wear it again, and it fits me like a glove. It's really pretty, and I feel gorgeous in it - which is crazy, for me. I guess it's actually supposed to be a bridal gown? But oh well - it fits and looks good and it's free. ;) Plus it's really pretty, and the detail of flowery-ness on the top is really pretty.

Also, Christmas! I haven't done ANY shopping yet. :/ And I still need to shop for my parents, Sam, Farah, Savita, Alie and Kara. :/ Blahhh. So much to do and there's only 12 days until Christmas. :( I'm SO stressed out. However, I do quite enjoy the lights, etc. If only it would get a bit colder. :)

When the earth is gray and white, I light a fire inside. Extra blanket time. It's lonely in life, designed for two. Yeah, wintertime is when I most miss you. </3 Love you, Ty. I miss you. I wish you were here with me. Christmas just isn't the same without you.

Update. :)

Well I unfortunately haven't written in a while. I've been SO stressed with school, etc. Anyways. I have TONS of homework tonight, and I haven't  even started. :/ Also, I need to choose the song I'm going to sing for the Christmas concert. I'm either doing Where Are You Christmas or So This Is Christmas. I'm not sure which one to do, and I need to decide by tomorrow! :// 
But anyways.
Then all next week I have finals, and I have to study for  those. But we get off at 11:30 every next week and we're on break from December 18th to January 4th. We go back the 5th. So 17 days I think? I'm hoping I can catch up on sleep, etc during the break.


I went to church camp last weekend, and it was awesome. I learned a lot. But it was kind of hard seeing all these places I have memories with Ty. I just tried not to think about it.


And I'm going to the winter ball on the 19th - which I still don't have a dress for. I'm going with this guy named Dimitri. I'm a princess so I have to go. I feel really weird going with someone besides Ty, but Dimitri understands what I'm going through and stuff so he knows it's just as friends. I got to know him well during church camp - he's a good friend of Logan's and came with - and he's a really cool guy. So I'm not feeling too bad about it anymore.
I wish I could have captured the amount of stars there were. Literally trillions of stars. It was absolutely beautiful.